Higher the highs, lower the lows?

I saw this on someone's msn message and it never made sense to me. I couldn't make out what this guy was talking about. This is going to be one of my posts where nothing links one another so I guess I've prepared you for some confusion. Alright, I've done drugs. I'll happily admit it. Who hasn't this day around? I'm not an addict nor do I depend on it either. 'A little fun' is how I see it. My youth is never going to come back to me so I might as well experiment with a little? I'm sure you don't agree. But what is it that I'm here to do that's so important that I need to preserve my health for anyway? For my future offspring? Make sure they're healthy and living a good life? What good life are we talking about anyway? Global warming is hitting us way up where the sun don't shine that I believe we're all going underwater pretty soon. Which brings me to another important question. Do I need to have children? Would I be creating another human being and ensuring him/her a normal life? What is all of our purpose here? Are we being tested by nature or beings above? And this is the point where I can't go any further. Are we all so worried about materialistic things that we all are blind to the bigger picture? We're all god damn bacteria. Breeding and living on this earth like a parasite. We're the most intelligent parasite yet the most idiotic and stupid. Don't agree? Think of it this way, we all work in the same way, get married, ensure that our bloodline is carried on and we all have the desire reporducing more and more of our own. All brainwashed by money and making it big in this life. But where does this take all of us? Greed sets in and we kill one another for power. One victory spruces up another desire for another. Women raped, children killed or aborted, nations over-thrown by one another and racism based on skin color. What the fuck are we all doing?

The Interenet!

We met upon the Internet, A friendship electronic, Expressed alone in words and thoughts, Inevitably platonic. We live too far apart for us To mingle in the flesh, But much more close than family, Our hearts and feelings mesh. Your dear, dear self reveals itself Without a voice or face. We have our own sweet home within Our precious cyberspace. Ugh.. IM SO FREAKING WASTED!!!

Negativity

Very funny that today I sit and think about why is it that when people face some negative situations - they have to sit back stuck with the same negative thought but yet (as tho this is an Intel Motherboard with HT technology) push your mind into 6th gear and race toward the other negative and rather unpleasent life situations and merge them with this ONE thought you're stuck with. Why? I've never seen this happening when the happier times are sailing high. Pain is pleasure huh, after all.

Just a thought..

A friend of mine sent me this sms.. Something she came up with..

We are one soul in two bodies, one mind with two brains, one heart with two heartbeats and one life time with two lives. All one reality formed with two dreams.

Amanda Waring.

1 inch stamp

Lets see .. how do I begin this.. You must wonder how do artists come up with the colors and designs.. psychotropic drugs of course! Ever had a stamp? No. Try it once, and if you have the skill to make what your mind see's, WALLAH! You've done it. I was at a rave of course.. my first time trying out acid aka 'a stamp'. Now to even think about popping one of these, you need to be in the correct frame of mind or else its going to be 6 hours of paranoa. I pop it in, wait patiently for about 20 mins, till i feel my body becoming slightly warm. Felt this tingling sensation at the tips of my fingers and all I could do was smile. I saw people looking at me while I had this happy and broad grin on my face probably, i bet they were wondering what my trip was. Soon after.. all I know is my analyticall skills and my level of thought became extremely powerfull, to top it off so did my imagination! I thought we were this specie, breeding off the music the DJ was playing. All I could see was this guy (the DJ) wearing a hood and his face was hidden by its shadow. I could feel the music becoming more powerfull and the energy within me increasing to. I began to move to every sound and every beat. My body automatically reacted to it. I began to see colors pop out of the wall. Those colors moved like jello and were wobbling frantically. I remember walking toward a wall which had a weird picture of a woman and a man. It was painted in florescent colors and they suddenly all became 3d, moving to beats of the music playing in the background. Then I stopped dancing, the colors were playing on my mind and all my thoughts. That was my mistake. Thats when i realised I had nobody around me and paranoa set in. The colors began to scare me and I thought it wanted to eat me alive. So I sat down and closed my eyes, which made things only worse. I imagined that I no longer could open my eyes and that I would be stuck in eternal darkness forever.With some luck a friend spots me, pulls me up and throws me back to where people are. I see familiar faces and I begin to feel comfort, yet halucinating.I danced my way back to my normal self. Thats one night never to be forgotten.

Tunnel to the soul

The face that shows no emotion, detached,
dispassionate but yet compassionate ah! got her!
her eyes are the windows to her soul,
They give her away! ! !

Those memories.

Think abt her, something she said
a crack is made on that frown crease on her forehead
Something assumed a look in her eye
brings about a shine with want and desire tingling all over ..
whatever she makes me smile !!

Who is she ?

I wonder if her day passes without thinking of me
Once, maybe? I think of her voice... as soothing as staring into the blue sky her eyes...
Soulful, intense What does she see ?
I look at her & steal a glance save it in the vaults of memory keeping it for later...later
Only to savor it day after day
Untill next time ...
She takes my breath away! ! !

Grim Reminder

Never mind what he did too her body
It was her soul that was ripped apart
Bit by bit right from the start
A look. a touch, a wink of the eye
Made her cringe in shame. Self blame. Unknowing, unaware
All she wanted to do was die.
lackness.Darkess.Enveloped in. A bottomless well of oblivion Fall.Fall into.Peace.
When she came to,she woke up to a family in denial.
Pleads forver buried in the sand Disbelief.Mirth.Ridicule.
So she must be her only best friend
And help all the wounds heal herself
But the scars still remains a grim reminder that there's no end.

Something special.. for someone..

No matter how much u think of me. i think of u a bit more. yr love is precious to me. There's no way i can let it go. we'll live, u and i, my life. And love the love of dreams. From the first time i saw u, And i knew u were for me!